Chris Brown Hates Himself

Chris Brown shared a lengthy post on Instagram reflecting his thoughts on his troubles and imperfections!

Recently Chris Brown shared a post on Instagram sharing his troubled thoughts after baby mama claimed he cheapened out on his daughter’s birthday. Nia Guzman the mother of Brown’s daughter Royalty recently celebrated Royalty’s birthday at Chuck E.

Cheese’s in Houston but Brown was not able to attend. According to Chris Brown’s representative Brown was in Miami working on a music video and like any working parent he is doing the best he can to prioritize Royalty’s needs.

A photo posted by @chrisbrownofficial on /4/27, 2015 at 6:33pm PDT

The representative also stated to TMZ that Brown had offered Nia the option of having Royalty flown over to Disney World along with the entire family for her first birthday but Nia refused. Nia /4/have refused if her current boyfriend King Ba was not included in the Disney World trip.

Later Chris shared a picture of himself sitting on a terrace overlooking an ocean. The caption to the picture revealed how troubled Brown thoughts have been lately as he called himself ‘Konfuzed’. Brown wrote he always thought he knew about love but fame and money get in the way.

I’m Konfuzed, I always thought I knew the concept of love. Fame and Money can get in the way of that. Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes. I can’t speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling. There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see. I talk to God a lot now. He’s given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it becuz of the choices I’ve made or mistakes. I tend to accept the negative or the riff raff becuz I know what it’s like to be a young black “nigga” in America. I always see the good in people even when they don’t see it. I love others more than myself at times. Everything u see on the surface does not reflect what’s inside. This is my white flag. I surrender to life and all its blessings. I refuse to be petty and attention seeking. To know me is to love me. Good Bad UGLY! Sincerely, Konfuzed

A photo posted by @chrisbrownofficial on /4/28, 2015 at 10:45am PDT

According to Brown all of his issues stem from his feelings of rage and jealousy and he can be a ‘dog’ sometimes. Brown even revealed at times he ‘Hates’ looking at himself in the mirror and he feels God has given him everything but he has wasted it all because of his ‘Impulsive’ personality.

Brown even shed light on how he thinks it’s like being a young black ‘Nigga’ in America and even though he sees the good in people others don’t. Brown then stated he is surrendering to life and all the blessings he has and this post is his ‘White Flag’. Brown ended the statement saying he has ‘Good’, ‘Bad. And ‘Ugly’ sides but he refuses to be petty.